| I was kinda bummered out tonight. I went to Chipotle to get food wit mah man and sum of his friends. Then came up the infamous subject of Dani and what they've done in the past....u kno things I just don't wanna hear. It's like, he had such long relationships wit these people and I feel like our relationship will never get to that point. And of course, as much as Mike rocks, he brought up the sensitive subject of asking Eric whether or not he could see himself getting married to me one day. Now, in my past relationships I've realized it's just better to leave well enough alone when it's only like 3 months. Cuz I just don't like to hear his answer "I dunno, we haven't been dating that long" I kno that answer is fine but it's one if those things that when I start thinkin bout it I get worried. I don't wanna rush it at all or anything.....but I wanna be loved...like back when I was a Sophmore and I heard it from Renzo...and it was actually sincere. It's just a great feeling. And things are so perfect so far with Eric....I hope it stays that way. I hope he feels the same way I do and is looking forward to a good relationship that could last. I'm just impatient.....I want sumthing that can't be rushed. But I kno that once it happens, it'll be so wonderful.....and I'll be so happy. Even if it isn't with him, it'll happen with sumone....if not I guess I'll be an old maid with 50 cats. I wanna get married damnit! And have kids. ok, not now, but one day. |
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| no one uses this thing anymore. Kinda sad in a way. but i still am cuz i need an outlet... |
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